.sweet.little.agony.

Quoting Serendipity:
You know the Greeks didn't write obituaries. They only asked one question after a man died: "Did he have passion?".

To answer, I want passion(ate) written on my tombstone. I think many would agree.

hey guys, guess what.. i finally, finally got a car!!!!!!!! -gah- ain't it great. i'm lovin' it, entirely. i've been smoking more [cigs], which definitely isn't good, though i've laid off.. whatever else. i hate drugs, they destroy people, nothing more. fuck all that "having a good time" shit; if you can't "have a good time" being sober, you shouldn't be allowed to try to have a "good time" while fucked up on whatever else. personal opinion, of course. i'm not going all straightedge or anything, but when you're to the point of only doing whatever a supposed "little bit" which then turns to being trashed every fucking day, i'm sorry, but you're killing yourself without even realizing it and if you do realize it, you're just fucking stupid. yay for laura's drug rant, moving on? shall we? indeed. college is.. oh god
-rolls eyes- all i fight about with my parents, i guess. i don't want to stay local because i'm sick of their bullshit which we all know i am, i complain about them enough - i love them, i really truly do, i'm just tired of them trying to parent me, i'm beyond that now, and i'm ready to move on with my life, they just need to let go. i need a second job. i don't know how i'm going to be able to afford my car payments + insurance + gas every month on what i make now, especially once school starts and i'll have to alter my hours.. i need a late night waitressing job someplace, you know, some sleazy bar or something, where i can make a shitload in tips.. haha, right, but seriously, i need another job. -yawn- i'm done bitching for now. i've got a doctors appointment tmrw - physical whatever for college, joy. lets see if they point out anything wrong.. that'd just top off everything for me right now, ha, yea. ok.. goodnight, farewell, what have you. laters, all.

registered for class today, another step forward..

i'm back.. it's over. i hate goodbyes. i'll write more later, when i actually feel like writing, we'll see, i'm sure..

Your Birthdate: June 12

You're a dynamic, charismatic person who's possibly headed for fame. You tend to charm strangers easily. And you usually can get what you want from them. Verbally talented, you tend to persuade people with your speaking and writing. You are affectionate and loving, but it's hard for you to commit to any one relationship. Your strength: Your charm Your weakness: Your extreme manipulation tactics Your power color: Indigo Your power symbol: Four leaf clover Your power month: December

i leave in 3 days.
i turn 18 in 4.

i booked a flight to jersey. june 11 - 26. for those of you that care.
nothing more. oh, and look at my new layout. nothing special.
laters XD

yea, so.. i'm officially done with high school -> me = official graduate, as of today. yay?
heh.. i don't know.. it's kinda scary to think about it, really, that and the fact that it hasn't all really hit me yet... i mean, especially with graduation today, it was weird because it wasn't all "i've known these people forever, i'm never going to see them again" but more so "aww.. we graduated, i'll see so and so next week sometime" i mean, those that i actually talk to i know i'll still see, hang out with, etc. and everyone else, as sad as it is, well, we'll both just move on, go our separate ways... i don't really have any true ties with the people here, at least not like i would/did in jersey... it's just... surreal, in a sense. but yea.. like i said, it hasn't all really hit me yet especially since i've been avoiding actual thought on the matter... yea.. -nods- oh, my sister gave me this.. adorable/perfect/amazing collage, of the two of us, growing up/me how i've changed.. it was perfect, brought me to tears.. the best graduation present i could've ever expected, honestly.
now that i'm rambling about sweet nothings, as always, i think i'm going to go to bed - it has been one hell of a day, long and exhausting.. i shall try and update more often for those that still care enough to read, check up on me, and so forth.. i'll be sure to keep you posted? heh.. the many happenings of my life at the moment... but yea... i bid you adieu.
keep safe and be well.

p.s. i'm single, again. [go figure]
p.s.s. i might be, most definitely trying to be, going/coming up to jersey soon... right around my birthday, the 12th for those that do not remember. i'll let you know.

much love..<3